In interview, Liam Neeson confesses to "horrible" thoughts of revenge after rape of a loved one

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(LONDON) -- In his new movie Cold Pursuit, Liam Neeson plays an everyman who has vengeance on his mind after his son is killed in a gang-related incident.

But in an interview about the project with The Independent, Neeson confesses that his character's mindset is something that he's personally experienced.  According to the actor, he once harbored a "horrible" racist revenge fantasy after a loved one was raped by a black person.

"I’ll tell you a story. This is true," the actor recalled, before revealing that the unidentified woman was attacked while Neeson was overseas.

"She handled the situation of the rape in the most extraordinary way...I asked, did she know who it was? No. What color were they? She said it was a black person," he recalled.

Neeson continued, "I went up and down areas with [a makeshift club], hoping I’d be approached by somebody -- I’m ashamed to say that -- and I did it for maybe a week, hoping some 'black b*****d' would come out of a pub and have a go at me about something, you know? So that I could...kill him."

The Taken star admitted, "It took me a week, maybe a week and a half, to go through that."

As far as the victim's response to his behavior, he said, "She would say, 'Where are you going?' and I would say, 'I'm just going out for a walk.' You know? 'What’s wrong?' 'No no, nothing's wrong.'"

The actor says, "It was horrible, horrible, when I think back, that I did that. And I’ve never admitted that, and I’m saying it to a journalist. God forbid."

The actor admitted, "It’s awful...But I did learn a lesson from it, when I eventually thought, 'What the f*** are you doing,' you know?"

Neeson's camp wouldn't respond to a subsequent follow-up to the stunning confession, the paper explained.

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